Families and dementia

The first time he accused me of stealing from him, he was lying on his bed reading The Northern Miner. “You stole my credit union statement,” he said.

I thought he was joking. I had Power of Attorney and could look at his accounts at any time. I had no need or reason to steal his monthly statement. “That’s what happens with some sons,” he said bitterly and turned back to his paper.

I said, “I never stole your credit union statement. How would I steal it?”

“I went to the Credit Union and it wasn’t there.”

“Jack probably picked it up.” His brother Jack often picked up his statements or his mail for him.

“You stole it,” he said. I called his brother. Sure enough, he’d picked up the statement. He told my father he’d picked up the statement. He came over and handed him the state­ment. “It’s a copy,” my father said. “It’s not an original.”

Dementia sneaks up on people. Someone you’ve known all your life and con­sider their behaviour stable, predictable, slowly, gradually, begins to change. There’s no way to see that their brain is getting less oxygen. The dis­ease is invisible. There’s the forgetfulness, of course, but people mistake forgetfulness with dementia. If you forget your car keys, that’s forgetful­ness. If you forget what the car key is for, that’s dementia. But long before you forget what a car key is used for the dis­ease has begun to change your behaviour. And the people around you still think that you are the same person they’ve known all their lives.

I was so furious over my fa­ther’s accusing me of stealing his credit union statements that I called West Jet and changed my flight from a month later to the next day. For the first time in our lives, my father and I parted with anger and raised voices. When I got home I wrote to the family lawyer say­ing that I refused to continue as my parents’ power of attorney and executor. Both positions require absolute trust between the two parties.

A month later my Uncle Jack called and said my father and he wanted me to continue in both positions. It took a lot of persuading but, finally, I agreed. It was an agreement that I came to regret.

Power of Attorney. POA. Everyone needs to designate someone as their POA. Oth­erwise the government steps in and time and again that has turned into a nightmare as face­less civil servants take over as­sets, sell off belongings, decide what the individual may or may not have. And charge for it.

Years before the incident over the credit union statement my parents had announced over lunch that at two o’clock we were going to see the family lawyer and they wanted me to sign documents making me their power of attorney. Sure, I said, blithely, never having heard of Power of Attorney before. It never occurred to me that I should have insisted on showing the documents to my own law­yer and have her explain what was involved and what should be modified in the agreement to protect my interests.

As Power of Attorney I had the right, once my parents became incapable of manag­ing their affairs, of taking over their bank accounts, their in­vestments, their rental property, even their home. I could keep them from having access to their assets. My duty was to act for their benefit as they would act for themselves. Easier said than done since people in the early stages of dementia don’t believe there’s anything wrong with them. Even people in the later stages will protest that they’re quite capable of taking care of their affairs. When my father was in Betel and no lon­ger could remember how to use the telephone, he still insisted that he wanted to trade penny stocks on the Vancouver Ex­change. Who was going to tell him no. After all, they could rightly argue that he was just doing what he’d been doing for close to seventy years.

One of the common ele­ments of dementia is paranoia. That paranoia is usually fo­cused on someone close, some­one with authority. While other behaviour may continue to be, or appear to be, quite normal, the person with paranoia inter­prets everything that the person of authority does in a paranoid way. A friend of mine had a call from her mother saying that her father was behaving strangely. He’d stopped eating anything she cooked. My friend went over the next morning at break­fast time. Her father was sitting with a bowl of porridge in front of him. “Why aren’t you eating your porridge? “she asked. He shuffled and looked away from her. “Is there something wrong with the porridge?” He didn’t reply. “If you don’t want it, I’ll eat it. I haven’t had breakfast.” She took the porridge bowl and dipped in the spoon. “You’re not going to eat that”, he burst out. “Why not?” she replied. “Do you think Mom’s trying to poison you?” She ate a couple of spoonfuls. “Why would she want to poison you?” Sheep­ishly, he took back the bowl. He had believed that his wife of decades was trying to poison him. When my father came to stay with me, as a courtesy, I served him first, then myself. He was, after all, both my fa­ther and my guest. But then I noticed he didn’t drink his cof­fee until I’d taken a drink of mine. He didn’t start eating his bacon and eggs until I started to eat mine and that was when I remembered my friend’s expe­rience with her father.

It is a long, hard road filled with pain as one deals with a parent or spouse who begins to behave in ways that are hurtful and illogical. They are, after all, the same person one has dealt with for most if not an en­tire lifetime.

At first, the changes are often subtle and are misinterpreted.

After my mother went into Betel, my father called me and in a dramatic, passionate phone call worthy of a melodrama asked if he could come to live with me. What could have been a one sentence request, “Is it all right if I come and live with you?” became a half hour of begging, pleading, manipulating. At the end of the call, I said sure, fine, I’ve got everything all organized in case you wanted to come to live here. I flew to Gimli. We flew back to Victoria and on the flight he was his usual charming self, even in his eighties drawing the stewardesses to him with his ready smile, his compliments and anecdotes.

It started off well. People came to visit and he always loved an audience. But then things began to go awry. One day he said he was going to walk to the mall which is about five blocks away. He’s always loved window shopping. He could spend hours wandering in and out of stores. However, today was Thanksgiving and we were to go to my nephew’s for Thanksgiving supper. Sup­per time came and went and there was no sign of my father. I walked to the mall. I searched inside and outside the mall. I came home and called my nephew who lives in Sidney.

“Sean,” I said, “your grand­father is missing. I can’t find him. Can you come and help me search?”

He jumped in his truck and started for Victoria. He was half way here when his wife called him on his cell phone and said, “Grandpa phoned me. He is on the transit bus and he’s getting off at the highway bus stop. I’ve got to go. Come back. I’ll phone Uncle Billy.”

She threw the two kids into the van and raced to the high­way. She stood at the bus stop, spotted my father’s homburg on the bus and started waving wildly. He got off quite non­chalantly. This man who had lived in the country and in the wilderness, who had hardly ever been on a transit bus, had walked to the mall, had asked someone how to take a bus downtown, had asked someone downtown how to take a bus to Sidney, thirty miles away. As the bus approached Sidney, my father asked one of the passen­gers if he had a cell phone. The passenger did and called the number my father gave him.

By the time I arrived, Thanksgiving supper was over. I ate reheated turkey. My father sat on the couch as if nothing unusual had happened. When I said it was time to go, he re­plied that he was going to stay the night at his grandson’s. I pointed out that they had a small house and no spare bed­room. Reluctantly, he came back with me.

Things seemed stable for a few days but then my niece, whom he loved dearly, was to come for a visit. They had a very special relationship be­cause my father and mother had helped to bring up her and her brother after their father was killed in an industrial accident in northern Canada. My father talked repeatedly about the fact that Kim was coming to visit.

The day she was to arrive, he got all dressed up in his pearl grey suit. He started out the door when I said, “Don’t leave now. Kim will be here in fifteen minutes.”

I’m just going for a walk,” he replied. I expected that he would walk up the hill to the end of the street, then walk back. Kim arrived but there was no sign of my father. Sup­per time came. We went to the gate to look up our dead end street. We looked down the main street that ran by the house. While Kim stayed at the house in case he turned up, I went searching. Up and down the streets of the neighbour­hood. Back to the house. Over to the mall. It began to get dark; it started to rain and in despair, I called the Saanich police and asked them to put out an APB on him. I called the hospitals. Then all we could do was wait and hope.

An hour passed, then two. I kept going to the front door to look out. We were having a cup of tea when there was a knock on the door. To my re­lief there he was between two policemen. Except my relief didn’t last. One of the police­men wanted to know my name, my father’s name, our relation­ship, then he said, “Your father says you’ve stolen all his mon­ey and he’s come to Victoria to get it back.” That started a half hour interrogation.

Elder abuse is common in Victoria. There are a lot of elderly to be abused. There are lots of people prepared to abuse them. When the police were satisfied that my father’s money hadn’t been stolen – I offered to show them my POA and his credit union statements – they left but not before in­forming me that they’d found my father downtown at Eaton’s Centre with six hundred dol­lars in his hand. He hadn’t been picked up because of the APB. Eaton’s security had noticed that he was confused, saw the money and whisked him into a safe area. I went to the kitch­en table and started to have tea with my father and niece. There was a knock on the door. The previous police were from the Victoria force. Now there was a Saanich officer and a so­cial worker. I invited them in. My father sat silent as we went through the same routine once again. They, too, left. Once they were gone, I said to my father, “Why did you say I’d stolen your money.” He smiled and said, “I didn’t want to have to pay for a taxi.”

Living with a bachelor like me isn’t very interesting. My routine is pretty predictable and boring. Because of this I tried to take him somewhere every two or three days, not any place special, Home Hard­ware or WalMart, just some­where to give him a chance to get out of the house. The night I took him to Home Hardware, I should have begun to realize that something odd was going on. In the past, he’d have spent hours walking the aisles, look­ing at everything there was for sale. But this night there was no doing the man-thing look­ing at tools. He’d always loved to window shop. However, ev­ery time I went to search for something, he followed me and when I suggested he have a cup of coffee he only moved to follow me from a distance. It wasn’t until Halloween when the penny dropped. The Gov­ernor General’s residence was decorated with pumpkins lined along the driveway. The pump­kins were carved in the like­ness of famous people from all walks of life. There were Hollywood actors and cartoon characters, politicians. People came by the thousands to oooh and aw.

I told him we’d go to see them. I thought he’d be enter­tained. It would give us some­thing to talk about. When we left for the GG’s, it was night time and he didn’t know Vic­toria well even in daylight. At night it was a complete mys­tery. More than once, he said to me, “Where are we going?” He sounded nervous. I explained once again about the pumpkins. When we arrived there was no place to park so I dropped him off at the gate and told him to wait there for me

It took awhile to find an empty parking space and by the time I got back my father was shaking so hard he couldn’t stop. It was then I realized that he was afraid and what he was afraid of was that I was going to leave him and disappear. My heart sunk. All the evenings out I’d planned to keep him entertained had been a night­mare for him. Instead of amus­ing him, they’d terrified him. After his mother died when he was twelve, his father had taken him to the city to visit his aunt. She had no children and she’d offered to take my fa­ther since my grandfather was now left with four children. Except they never told my fa­ther what they’d planned. He thought they’d go for coffee, then return to Gimli. Instead, my father was left behind at his aunt’s. I wondered as I drove home about what was going on in his mind that he could mix me up with his father leaving him behind. He’d left Gimli on both occasions. He’d gone to the city on both occasions. But many decades had passed. Later, though, on a number of occasions, when asked who I was, he replied, “This is my father.” When asked by a psy­chiatric nurse what our rela­tionship was, he said, “He’s my father.”

I thought my heart would break when I realized that ev­erything I had done to make things better for him had made him afraid. That this man who risked his life time and again without a second thought as he fished on Lake Winnipeg, who would, his brother Jack said “rather fight than eat”, could be reduced to shaking fear be­cause he thought he might de­liberately be left behind was devastating.

This, no longer was my fa­ther. Some stranger had taken over his mind. Nothing I did could be or would be interpret­ed in a normal fashion. Every action would be seen through the terrifying lens of paranoia.

After a life time’s relationship with my father, I now was dealing with someone I no longer knew.